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Day 28 - Workshop

First, let me say that I am very close to crashing out on LinkedIn. My former company is hiring for a full-time analyst position that while I'm likely not qualified for, I suspect I could have been trained in it, or one of the other nearly 60 people they laid off was almost certainly qualified for. I'm very close to posting something along the lines of "what, you couldn't figure this out before you upended the lives of 60 people? One of your values is accountability, and you list it in the job posting. Do you feel like you're living up to accountability right now?"

But I'm not sure everyone needs to see me have an absolute meltdown right now, so I'll take a deep breath and try to move on. If I never get hired ever again, you'll know it was from this moment and that I decided to let the intrusive thoughts win.

The reason I titled this post today "workshop" is because I'm going to be workshopping something through this post. I am lucky enough to be working with a career coach (I think that's her title) to make my resume suck less, and she needs some skills and accomplishments from past jobs.

I haven't thought about it in a while, but when I was at UB, I earned the 'Meritorious Contribution as a New Professional Award' from CSPA-NYS. I believe the organization has changed their name now, and I have since gotten rid of the physical award since I assumed I would never need it again, but luckily LinkedIn has it listed for me. I earned it an entire lifetime ago in October 2015.

I should probably tell her that my SAFe Agilist certification has expired, and maybe also look into how to renew that certification. I know these organizations need money to function, but sometimes these renewal fees feel exorbitant for someone that is unemployed. Heck, they felt exorbitant when I had a job, but it feels silly to need to pay to continue to say "I learned this thing, I've used this thing, so please can I pay you to put on my LinkedIn that I still know this thing?"

Ok, I digress.

I have some budget information that I'll send her from two different jobs, and I'm reaching out to some of the managers I'm still in touch with to see if anything stands out to them. Maybe I'll also ask my husband when he gets home. I doubt he'll remember specifics about my jobs, but he is always telling me to have more confidence, like him. He just assumes that everyone thinks he is great and then proceeds in life with that attitude. If nothing else, I can ask him what he would put down for skills. I'm sure something he says will job my memory.

One of the hardest things about this is that I sort of assume that everyone I work with has all the same basic skills as me. Why do I need to talk about Excel, or knowing how to put together a presentation? Obviously, everyone knows how to do that. Why talk about interviewing, hiring, and onboarding people? Everyone in the roles I've had have done those things. Turns out I need to be explicit. And like, about my skills, not with flowery language.

I have dawdled enough. It is probably time that I take some of these thoughts and start to put them in the Word doc she needs me to send her. Wish me luck.

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